Just Being Honest

Am I The Weakest Link(goodbye)?

2012-02-08T18:56:00.000-08:00

IDK WHAT IS GOING ON ANYMORE. I HAVE CHANGED in the past 3 weeks. I don't recognize myself internally anymore. I ASK MYself daily 'Dear God, Thank you!' I am no longer a procrastinator. Three people in the past week told me that 'seemed a lot happier'. I think it has to do with the all of a sudden no stopping it deep worship that I have been experiencing. This is amazing. I'm soo astounded with what God is giving me, internally and externally. This whole blog post doesn't even come close to how amazing this really is..

Jesus is king of all kings. The Second beast is no match for Jesus. Read it. Jesus wins. Lets focus on that :D

The best part is... This came out of no where :D

School

2012-02-01T11:14:00.000-08:00

Does God really give us more tries.. Does He really give us 'second chances'?

I believe He does. I believe that if we commit or re-commit ourselves to Him that He will reward our loyalty and honesty. I have found that God gives us more chances when we ask for them, and that in turn, makes us want to be more like Him and more repentative.

It is like a cycle that I am hooked on, and I love it. You ask for forgiveness in one area of your life, and when God answers us we then want to be more like him in other areas. It is an awesome cycle to be a part of and I'm glad that I'm on this end of it :)

God has given me the opportunity to become part of a school system again. Thanks Jesus. God has also given me a sence of passion and worth again, which I now realize I was missing. I am taking 5 classes, all 3 credits.

American Popular Music
Intro to Corrections
Psych of Personal Growth
Intro to Sociology
English Comp

All awesome classes and I have awesome classmates.

One thing that I had worried about(which I will not disclaim at this time) has been answered. I am still searching for the meaning of this answered prayed but the matter of the fact is is that the foundation of that prayer has been answered.

I just had a God flash I believe.

When we see us as outgoing creatures, God sees us as timid. Compared to what He has seen and done, we have a long ways to go. But at the same time, when we see us as funny, God sees us as hilarious! I'd like to believe that God laughs at my jokes even more than anyone else does, even if it is the 1,000,000,000,000,000th time He has heard it.

God is good <3

recap

2011-12-30T12:15:00.000-08:00

This is just a recap on what is going on in my life since my last post, which was I believe the beginning of November. It is now the End of December so it's almost safe to say that 2 months have passed.

We had a chimney fire. Well we caught it in time before it caught fire but if we would have waited any longer than it would have caught our house and we may all be dead. Thank God for that.

Now my car is broke. The belt split in 2 and then it busted one of my pulleys so that car is 95% useless unless I can get a belt and the pulley isn't messed up too badly.

Now the kerosene heater that we got from a friend won't start. So we have absolutely no heat in our house :(

But, I still have clothes, and my family, and my pets, and I'm still alive. We have electricity and we have each other. I guess that's good enough.

I just pray that this torture will end soon. Idk how much more our family can take it.

New Mind Creation

2011-11-09T19:14:00.001-08:00

New Mind Creation. Mix of Romans 12:2 and 2 Corinthians 5:17

Romans 12:2a
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed

2 Cor 5:17a
If anyone be in Christ, they are a new Creation

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Or look for it on Facebook. New Mind Creation!

Just when you thought

2011-09-24T08:06:00.000-07:00

I'm really down today. My past is catching up with me. Maybe I've been putting something off? Idk. I know God has a reason for this.

It's either Satan and I need to step on him or It's God showing me something, but I'm an emotional wreck right now.

Psalm 14

1 The fool says in his heart,
“There is no God.”
They are corrupt, their deeds are vile;
there is no one who does good.

Romans 3:12

12 All have turned away,
they have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good,
not even one.”

Those verses are speaking to me. It IS God's truth, but I know that Satan can sometimes use God's Word to deceive us.

I wish I could just back to that time and just not do it. It was the worst thing that happened to me. But it's when I started to take God seriously for the first time, so I guess it wasn't the worst time.

I had another fight with Amanda last night, as my last blog stated.

I have no clue what my next step in God is. I am trusting that He will guide me, but I have no idea where or what He is doing, and that kind of scares me. I know that He has big plans for me and I have been shown part of it... But I want to know what to do NOW and where my NEXT step is to be.

I am trusting God more than ever right now; mainly because I have nothing else to hold on to. I know that God is the only thing worth holding on to, so I know that I will be alright, I'm just waiting for Psalm 147:3 to come around.

Oh well, time for some worship.

Listen to

The Spirit went from 'I need to know You more' to 'You long to know us more' in another version.

It's been a while.

2011-09-21T20:44:00.001-07:00

I'm surprised my name didn't do the weird symbol thing it used to do, but I guess things have changed since I last posted on here.

I'm doing okay on my walk. I try to be in God's word everyday, and I have people keeping me accountable(even some people that I wish wouldn't, haha)

We had a kid get saved in our youth group last Sunday night, isn't that AMAZING! I love how we get to see God's awesomeness!

I think I am starting to realize what being humble is all about. I am learning about pride issues that I didn't know I had! I asked God to make me more like Him, but I didn't know that it would be so hard! It sounds like a cliche but it's not!

I had another fight with a really good friend of mine, but I guess they didn't think we were. They pointed out where I was being prideful and I had to take it. It was hard. Normally I would make up a logical excuse for why I am the way that I am, but I just let them do the talking. I soaked up what they said and I pray that I learned something from it.

Anyways, I hope God shows me what my next move in life is, because I don't know what it is. I have a general path but I want Him to show me my next step. I will take a leap of faith, but I need to know which cliff is mine to jump off of.

Listen to

http://youtu.be/MV63_Vmf-74

I'm hurt

2011-08-01T05:14:00.000-07:00

The title describes it all. I thought that I was going to be okay but I realize that it had been slowly eating at me, until now, when I realize that I've been trying to fill up the hole with other things. Things that aren't supposed to fill up holes in your heart.

So, I ask that you pray for me, whoever may be reading this, because not many people use this site anymore, but I ask that you pray for me. I ask that you pray that my heart be healed before I can damage it anymore. Please and Thanks.

This is me, VENTING!

2011-02-15T03:42:00.000-08:00

So, I have a new habit of keeping my keys right in the ignition of the car. It normally would be a dangerous habit but given where I live it is nothing to think of. I get this from my father, who does it pretty much everywhere.

Yesterday my mother(unknown to this habit) took the keys out of my car's ignition and threw them in the truck(she said just in case I wanted to take the truck, how thoughtful). So, now my keys are in the truck and her keys are in my car. When she got OUT of my car, she kept her keys with her; she doesn't do the 'trick'.

This morning about 4:45 or so my mother left for work. It is pretty dark out at that time, and she forgot that she left MY keys in the TRUCK(she takes the truck to work, and I take the car to school)

6:15 rolls around and I start to worry about where my keys are(After breaking into my car through all the ice and snow for about 10 minutes). I called up my mother and she says something along the lines of 'Your keys are in the truck. I realized I had them(get this part right here) after stopping at the end of the driveway' Can you believe that?

She KNEW I wasn't going to be able to get to school unless I had my KEYS! This makes me soo angry cuz we were talking about attendance today in class, and now everyone is going to think that I was 'making and excuse' to get out of class, and thats NOT true. I could honestly cry right now.

AT THE END OF THE DRIVEWAY. I didn't know my mom was in such a rush that she couldn't bring them back or even just put them in the mailbox and called me when she got to work.

This is stupid, but I've learned something from this, and no it is to not leave my keys in my car, but to make sure that my mom leaves my keys in my car after she drives it.

This makes me sooo ticked off it's not even me.

But, God is good, and I know He will bring me through this, even though I'm gonna HATE having to explain this story to my fellow classmates, seeing as the story is soo stupid.

One song that I'm going to be listening to a LOT today is

2011-02-01T21:17:00.001-08:00

Dear Jesus, I am not worthy. I do not know why You came down here. You claim it to be love but sometimes I wonder why still. I am not worthy of Your love. I thank You for Your grace, and how it is enough to do miracles with. I bless You for anointing me in the field of worship. I pray that as I lead people into Your presence that You would fill them up and pass my gift, from You, to them God. This gift is not for me to keep, but for me to give. Jesus, You are the reason that I am still here; You must have a plan for my life. I bless You Jesus for everything that You have done for me and through me. I pray that You continue this work in my life, in areas that I know need to be worked on and in areas that You work on without my knowledge. When I really try to think about You, Jesus, I cannot help but to cry. You have done too much for me, and I know You are going to continue to do 'too much' for me. Thank You for Chasing me and Saving me, Lord. I want to embrace what You have for me with everything that I have. I want to do without thinking about the consequences. Please make my courage stronger than my fears. That is the key to doing I think, so please help me. I know that I must step into what I'm going to be through You, and I thank You that You have me, and that You'll never let me go. You have a tighter grip on me than anyone else I know, and for that I am truly the one with the most blessings :) Thank You Jesus for showing me what REAL worship is all about, even though I've only just begun that journey! Thank You for letting me know time and time again that I have a great pastoral and prophetic gifting. I wish that everything I did was a direct result of Your love and I pray that people will see You through whatever I do. Thank You again Jesus and it is in Your name that I pray this, Amen"

Listen to

Jan 31st. Ball starts rolling

2011-01-31T09:03:00.000-08:00

So I talked with someone whom I made friends with while I was down there in Pa. Turns out that he said that there might be a spot opening up in his apartment at the end of March/April time. How sweet would that be? He said it would be $250 a month plus utilities. How More AMAZING is that? All I need is some money. I'm so excited!! haha. But I pray that God keep me in line to His plan, and that I don't go off on my own.

Keep me in your prayers, as you are always in mine :D

(SO EXCITED)

Uh oh here we go (it rhymes lol)

2011-01-29T13:46:00.000-08:00

So, I went to Pa for a week. Not for a conference or anything special, but just so that I could see what class was like. Now I'm hooked. I got prophesied over me that I have a great anointing for the prophetic and the pastoral. I need to further in these areas. Also, I have a great anointing for worship.

I want to go to Pa in the summer and get a job and get settled in a place there; hopefully with another student from GSSM or something like that.

Then go there for a full year, and who knows after that.

I really think this is God's call for me. I honestly believe that.

Suggestions? Questions? Comments? Pizza Recipes?

2011-01-18T18:47:00.000-08:00

Why do I have to be different? Why do I feel alone? Why is it that I feel like my whole life has been pushed on me?

I've always thought that if something was pressed upon me it must be God.

I was put on the worship team; why? Because there was no other drummer and everyone knows that you can't have a worship team without a drummer.

I became a leader for youth group; why? Because I had no where else to go. I had no group to fit into and I had friends in the group.

Maybe I just need to go away for a while. Find out who I really am outside of my 4 walls. I feel too convicted to leave or to stop serving, but I suppose thats a good thing.

Plattsburgh is sounding really good to me now. Maybe I could get a job out there, and possible split the rent with Josh on his apartment. That wouldn't be a bad idea, but I can see it being a bad one, and idk if he is even going to be willing to do that.

Life

2011-01-17T20:58:00.000-08:00

God gives me good news, and yet God gives me more good news. It seems like God always gives good news. The trick is how we look at the news He gives us. We may call it 'bad' news if we think about us or if we put us into the middle of it. Good news is new from something that is good(God). Bad news is only when Satan tells us something.

"Your mother has cancer" should be a good thing, right? Why do people see it as a good thing. Well, maybe this is God trying to say 'Come to me, and I'll get rid of it. I will get the glory and You will have your mother, and proof of my love'.

Thats what I got :D

Thats not what made me write this but it surely helps out the cause :D

Any kind of news from God is good; whether we see it as good or not.

The more we talk with God, the more He talks back to us. If we are in a full conversation with God, Satan can't interrupt it. (if yur gonna use that as a quote I ask that you site me as the source :p)

Listen to

2011-01-08T22:40:00.000-08:00

Conviction; Good thing or bad?

I believe that one of the MAIN reasons people stop going to church is because when we feel the presence of God, He makes us feel uncomfortable by convicting us of our wrongs. It drives people away from churches and the faith every single day. Why?

People HATE being told, especially from God, what their faults are. People probably think of it as a slap in the face or a 'wow, you are stupid' kind of thing. Thats how I used to feel, especially when Billy and I would have our fun chats :) haha.

One of the things God is changing in me is that I am starting to see conviction as a good thing. I don't know why God is doing this in me, but I am really glad He is! I no longer run from conviction like I used to. I used to pretty much hide away from everyone when I did something wrong. But now, now when I think of conviction I can almost smile. I don't see it as God saying 'Hey Boy, Look what you have done wrong' but instead I think it of God showing us our wrong because He knows that we are strong enough and brave enough and big enough to admit our wrongs, without backing away from Him, and in turn become more like Christ, which is our main purpose anyways :)

So, in the end, I am starting to feel that conviction is a good thing. Which is good, cuz I did something that I normally wouldn't do if I didn't think conviction was a bad thing.

God is good :)

Listen to Innocent by Our Lady Peace

2010-12-30T23:35:00.001-08:00

Im starting to see that people are afraid of things that arent worthy of being afraid of.

2010-12-28T07:11:00.001-08:00

Being in a relationship isnt a stage. Its going through the journey of life together.

This is me, Just Bein Honest.

2010-12-10T10:18:00.000-08:00

Do not be surprised, my brothers, when the world hates you.

I'm starting to feel the hate-ness from the world

Amanda Henderson, some of you know her, some of you don't, but for the ones who do, please pray for her, she needs it.

"Jef, I'm turning away from God" is the worst thing anyone could ever tell me. It's worse than falling away, cuz falling means that you are just inactive with Jesus, but TURNING away... That just hurts. It makes me want to never sleep again, but rather go out and touch as many people as I can for The Kingdom.

She has a new boyfriend. I do not know of his spiritual status, but based upon his actions or 'fruits' he is very unsaved. I could tell that she had lost her touch with Jesus even before I knew she had her boyfriend, but I was too afraid to ask her because her and I had some communication lost in the past month or so.

Please pray for her, cuz this is really upsetting to me. This is the number 1 heartache I have ever had, and I've had some pretty bad ones.

God is Good though, Satan is bad.

There needs to be revival in that whole county. It is going to start there, and I am going to be a part of it, I can feel it in my bones, my fiery bones.

Please comment this or email me or something and let me know what your input is!

~Just Bein Honest.

SLEEP!

2010-11-30T23:20:00.000-08:00

1 Thessalonians 5:5-7 (New King James Version)

5 You are all sons of light and sons of the day. We are not of the night nor of darkness. 6 Therefore let us not sleep, as others do, but let us watch and be sober. 7 For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk are drunk at night.

Ephesians 5:14 (New King James Version)

14 Therefore He says:

“ Awake, you who sleep,
Arise from the dead,
And Christ will give you light.”

1 Corinthians 15:50-52 (New King James Version)

Our Final Victory

50 Now this I say, brethren, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God; nor does corruption inherit incorruption. 51 Behold, I tell you a mystery: We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed— 52 in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.

Romans 13:11-12 (New King James Version)

Put on Christ

11 And do this, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep; for now our salvation is nearer than when we first believed. 12 The night is far spent, the day is at hand. Therefore let us cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armor of light.

I can't sleep, so I thought I would look up scripture that have the word sleep in them..

Seems that Sleep is a bad thing in this context... almost like Death. Maybe God is trying to tell me something..

You say you want a Revolution?

2010-11-14T06:37:00.000-08:00

A lot of people say that there is so much wrong that they just want a complete revolution to hit this country. You say you haven't heard people say that? Most likely because you haven't given them the time of day :p

I kid.

There IS a revolution coming, that I can promise you. Something so big is going to hit this place that we are ALL going to be hit hard. No one will be exempt from being completely knocked off guard.

The revolution isn't going to be physical; it won't involve certain political groups, or pertain to certain levels of social status. I am talking about a spiritual Revolution, and we are ALL going to get it.

Lets look at this like a forest fire. Because I believe that this is going to have a lot more SEVERE(but for the good) effects that a gigantic forest fire!

There are only 4 things you need to start a forest fire, and the first one is a Field.

The field is like all of the hearts that haven't felt or seen the love and grace of God manifest in their lives through someone. These are what I am going to call Dry Grass. As soon as the real deal of God hits them, they will be completely burned and on fire for Him, because they are just waiting for it to happen, regardless of their spiritual past.

But as for the Wet Grass; these are people who have knowledge about God and/or Christ Jesus. They might not be completely on fire at first, but I know that after a while and being surrounded by others who are truly living for Christ, they will get caught on fire. Sometimes all people need are mentors or just a good push in the right direction(like me). People will be stubborn and try to get out but no one is will be able to get out quick enough.

Now on to the other 3 things that we need.

The first thing we need is a box of Matches. We can try to see this as God. I know that in real life God is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bigger than a field, but just work with me :D haha.

So, God is the box of matches, and He has the power to do whatever He wants to and He can do it whenever He wants to.

Now, you can't just throw a box of matches into a field and witness a marvelous fire explode, but you have to take out a match. The Match is Jesus. Jesus is God, but made in Human form.

We have to repent and be like Jesus everyday that we live. If we repent of our sins, then the Bible says that God sees Jesus and not us (which is why we are allowed into Heaven, because of Jesus' sacrifice)

Okay, so we have the field(people), the box of Matches(God) and the Match(Us living like Jesus). Now all we need is to take the match and to strike it on the box. This is possible when we listen to the Holy Spirit that is inside of all believers.

Now that we have labeled the individual parts, we now should look at the process.

Once we are trying our best(and God's best) to live like Jesus we become the match. Once we become the match we then have to be continually listening to the Holy Spirit, letting Him guide us and to critique us on our journey(because afterall, you can't strike the top of the box and expect fire lol) After we strike the box we are on fire! The only difference between this analogy and the real deal is that Once we are on fire for God, it doesn't go out in a matter of seconds, it lasts a lifetime!! (Woot woot!)

Here is the most important part of it all. After we are on fire for God we have to lay our lives down(for Jesus and for Others) in the midst of people. We have to literally give up our lives for Jesus and then for other people, so that they can see and feel the effects of Jesus.

Sometimes it might take a couple minutes to get the fire going, but I can promise you that if you are doing the Will of God then there WILL be a fire, and it will spread like no other fire seen before!

Isn't that Amazing news?!?

Well, I'm on the bandwagon for this revolution, are you in it?

~JeF

Listen to

Chasing the wind

2010-04-17T18:06:00.000-07:00

Ecclesiastes 1:14 says 'I have seen it all, and everything is just as senseless as chasing the wind.'

verse 17 says 'Then I decided to find out all I could about wisdom and foolishness. Soon I realized that this too was as senseless as chasing the wind.'

2:11 says 'Then I thought about everything I had done, including the hard work, and it was simple chasing the wind.'

verse 17 says 'This made me hate life. Everything we do is painful; it's just as senseless as chasing the wind.'

verse 26 says 'If we please God, He will make us wise, understanding, and happy. But if we sin, God will make us struggle for a living, then He will give all we own to someone who pleases him. This makes no more sense than chasing the wind.'

4:4 says 'then I realized that we work and do wonderful things just because we are jealous of others. This makes no more sense than chasing the wind.'

verse 6 says 'Yet a very little food eaten in peace is better than twice as much earned from overwork and chasing the wind.'

verse 16 says 'His followers could not even be counted. But years from now, no one will praise him-- this makes no more sense than chasing the wind.'

11:8 says 'Even if you live to a ripe old age, you should try to enjoy each day, because darkness will come and will last a long time. Nothing makes sense'

12:8 says 'Nothing makes sense. I have seen it all-- nothing makes sense.'

so, what doesn't make sense? lol

PO-TAY-TOE

2010-04-06T17:40:00.000-07:00

Haha, RanDoM name for this blog. So my English teacher started class by telling us how horrible our grades were, and the face that many of us will probably choose to re-write this essay...Then I get mine back, and I got an 80!!!!! Haha. Thats my lowest(I think) grade on an essay so far.
I'm still suckin' at math, Idk why, but I freeze up on the tests. I have decided that I am going to take Calc 2 over again in the Fall.
Clinton does not offer Physics 2 in the Fall, so I'm not sure what to do for another class.
I want to take another psychology class, and Calc 2. I am thinking that I'm going to try maybe a music class, computer class, art class, creative writing class, or just some random class I never thought that I would take. Haha I love how God gives us free will, yet He knows what we are going to choose, so I am not worried. The most important thing is that I glorify God within all of these classes.

I love YOU GOD.

~JeF
Romans 1:16 I WILL NOT BE ASHAMED!

This is my most current English Essay. If you respond before 3/31 at 4pm you can help me fix the grammatical errors

2010-03-29T19:15:00.001-07:00

Jeffrey Robinson

03/29/10

Eng101-40C

Live for God.

Just like many others, I once suffered from depression, addictions, and fears. Before I came to know God on a personal level, my life was full of self hate which, in my case, led to self torture, shame, pity, and a big fear of the opinions from other people. Giving my life to God freed me, and led me to a very happy life. I would say that living for God is the best possible way to live life.

Living for God helps people learn to forgive others when they have been wronged. Holding someone accountable or not forgiving someone for something they did only hurts us. Living a life without forgiveness only leads to anguish and turmoil, but with help from God we can learn to forgive others and thus releases us from this burden. When I was 10, my cousin sexually molested me. I did not tell anyone for 5 years and during these 5 years I resorted to self-harm in order to deal with the emotional pain that I was going through. Once I started living for God and then finally forgave him, I was released from the torture of it. I no longer felt the need to hurt myself because of the past.

Everyone has the need to be loved, and everyone longs to love someone else. Sometimes, people do crazy things just to get affection from someone else. Sometimes people get emotionally unstable, but some people turn to violence in order to obtain that satisfaction.1 John 4:16 in the bible says 'We have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.' This is saying that God loves everyone, and that the affection that we need can be found in Him, the One who created it.

However, I have realized that many people claim to have happiness in their lives, yet have no personal connection with God. But, they usually base this statement on how much money they have or how much money they earn. Sometimes people say that they are living happy lives when they have found a person to admire or someone admires them. If these conditions change, happiness would not be found very easily.

I know that many people would say that their lives are better off without God because they base their lives off of their current circumstances. I can say that living life for God is the best possible way to live because it frees us from fear, depression, addictions, and it can bring about forgiveness. All of these things can be found from the Christian life, and all of these things help us to have a happier and better life.

2010-03-27T21:35:00.000-07:00

This verse has helped me immensity for the past 3 days..

Psalm 94:17-19

17If the LORD had not been my help,
My soul would soon have dwelt in the abode of silence.
18If I should say, "My foot has slipped,"
Your lovingkindness, O LORD, will hold me up.
19When my anxious thoughts multiply within me,
Your consolations delight my soul.

I'm soo thankful that our God is alive and that He answers prayers. I am so thankful that when I mess up, He doesn't. He is what I want to base my life off of. I love you, God.

PrayersGetAnswered

2010-03-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

Briana Stark and I used to date. We dated for 15 months I think it was. Me and her did everything you could think of together that you can think of. I used to think we were perfect for each other, then God got involved. I then tried to just ignore the problem, but then it just got worse and worse. We broke up because I decided that my wife should be just as crazy about God as I, or more. She wouldn't have it. 2 Days after we broke up I went to her house to give her back her xbox and her games and we literally just hugged and cried for about 10 minutes. We decided to go back out, I put God second and her first. I knew that things weren't right but I didn't care because I was happy at that time being.

I never got over her, no matter how many girlfriends I had since then, no matter how much I tried to occupy my life with other things, the feelings never died.

I came up with the idea that it takes just as much time to get out the relationship that it does to get into it. I'm talking emotionally. I figured that since we wen't out for over a year that it would take me over a year to get over her 100%. I have constantly prayed that I would wake up and be over her completely.

Tonight she imed me

brilikski 2:01 am
y u so crayyssy bout gos?d
jeffreyr10012920 2:02 am
not tonight Bri
brilikski 2:02 am
?:
jeffreyr10012920 2:02 am
please Bri
brilikski 2:02 am
k
jeffreyr10012920 2:02 am
thanx
brilikski 2:02 am
nigght
jeffreyr10012920 2:03 am
Goognight Bri :-)
brilikski 2:03 am
no smily pleasec
i drunks
i shoufldnt talks to u
jeffreyr10012920 2:03 am
I know you are, thats the only reason you talked with me
it's okay Bri, we can pretend like this never happend
brilikski 2:03 am
bed tiems. i havbe class int teh moern
jeffreyr10012920 2:03 am
okay, sleep well.
brilikski is offline 2:18 am

God finally answered the prayer that I have been so long praying for. I didn't know that it would be answered by actually talking with her, but I'm sooooo THANKFUL that God answered my prayer. :)

ohboii

2010-03-21T22:01:00.001-07:00

God is constantly teaching me lessons, sometimes I have to get the same lesson over and over again, but sometimes I get it the first time....but that is rare..

I've been sick for about 3 days now, my stomach doesn't feel well at all.and Idk whats going on in there.....

Sometimes God puts people in our lives so that we can bring them closer to God, but sometimes He puts people in our lives so that we can become closer to God.

The might of God!

2010-03-15T12:13:00.000-07:00

The more and More I get into it, the more and more I see God's power. It's incredible. Last night at youth group we had 3 people come forward and give their fears/guilt to God and then 2 people gave their lives to God :) God is amazing. I just need to remember that God has His own timing in His plan for me, and that no matter what I do, I can't change it. But I know that God's timing is the BEST timing for my life. There is a revival in Philly this week. I think I might go on Wednesday, but I'm not sure yet. I have been praying that God would bring a Revival here, not just a concert thing with a speaker, but a new flame and passion for God. He's brought it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its in me, right now. Oh how I love to be alive and living for God! It's the best thing in the world. :) I pray that god uses me somehow this week on my vacation to bring Him glory in ways that I would not have thought of. I have an idea, but Idk how well it would work. I'm thinking about playing my guitar in the middle of Malone on a stool. Worship music, of course. But Idk. I really want to use my guitar/singing in ways that only God would know. :) I have found a new song that has inspiried me to be all I can be for God.

The song is

Time to Blog

2010-03-06T19:03:00.001-08:00

It's been a while since I actually blogged so here goes... haha..

Ever since that night when me and Billy finally talked and I started to get straight with God I have felt like the lone ranger. Sure, I had friends in church and stuff, but they were more like friendly faces because I didn't see them at all except for Sundays. Then I started to hang out with Josh less and less to the point now that I see him MAYBE once a week for like 10 minutes.. I went a period of 3 weeks with no contact with him at all.... like AT ALL. All my life consisted of was School, and then Home. Church and youth group on Sundays and Men's night on Tuesdays. That was it. Literally, that is all I did. It got to the point where I was about to watch 2 Disney movies A DAY and STILL have free time AFTER doing my homework!! Then Satin sought a home in my heart. He brought it to my attention that I don't talk in my classes(except for physics when the teacher calls on me), and that I don't talk to anyone on the phone.(He must be saving my voice for something lol) I had the smallest amount of human contact that I have ever had in my life since birth. I can admit that for a time I HAD NO FRIENDS. zip. zilch. nada. nuthin. no body. literally no one to talk to, and I was starting to slip into a depression cause by a lack of communication with God.

.....BUT THEN.....
(this is the happy part)

On Friday(last night) we went to Cross Current(most amazing thing ever, other than generation conference) and Adam Avery spoke(he was amazing!!!!). He talked about 2 Kings 7:3-11. He also talked about Goat Roping(haha){Thats another story}. This guy is INCREDIBLE. He knows what he is talking about, let me tell you. After he spoke there was a time when there was music playing in the background and if we wanted/needed prayer then we were told to go up front... There was no one up front so I was kind of confused, but then a young girl(whose name I intent to get) went up, collapsed on the stage and started crying and the confusion was gone. I didn't think I was going to go up there, cuz I wasn't really sure what I was being 'trapped' by(goat story) but then it hit me. I HAVE NO FRIENDS came to my mind. I started getting sweaty and cold. I couldn't handle myself anymore so I went up front and got on my knees. Billy then put his hand on my back and started praying for me. It was then that I started CRYING MY EYES OUT(:]). Then Billy said something that will change my life forever. He prayed something along the lines of this 'God wants you to know that you are not alone.' Man o man I couldn't stop crying after that. I thought God had left me along with everyone else on this planet. Then I realized that I was being fooled by the Devil this whole time, and that God will never leave me. God really opened my eyes last night, and it was Bill's voice box that showed me :). I am so thankful to be surrounded by Godly adults and the fact that MY GOD will NEVER leave me NOR forsake me, as long as I do the same :)

I've got the easy part, clinging to God :) God's got the hard part, Putting up with me HAHA!

It's good to be back and to be back better than Ever!

There is a party in Heaven right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JOIN IT!!!!

This is my most recent English Essay.

2010-03-03T19:03:00.001-08:00

Jeffrey Robinson

Eng101-40C

March 2, 2010

My Fear of God Prevents Me from Living a Normal Life

Snakes, falling, and death are all common fears that people have. Fears such as these have lead people to live their lives around these fears. Sometimes these fears have so much impact on people that they don't live a socially normal life. I am one of those people, for I do not live a normal life because of my fear. However, I don't fear snakes or death or falling. I fear God, the creator of everything. This fear has led me to pray and pray often.

Many people don't think it's normal to pray out loud in public, yet last Saturday I found myself doing just that. One of my friends was going through a rough time and I felt compelled to pray out loud right outside the bowling alley we were about to enter. I barely even realized what I was doing until I was almost done, and when I was finished I looked up and saw people looking at me weird. I just smiled and walked away.

That's not the only time that I have been outside of a public building praying out loud so people can hear me. In the 2008-2009 school year, I prayed aloud and sang songs at "See You At The Pole" at my high school. I played worship music on my guitar and then I prayed aloud while thirty fellow students prayed with me. While this was going on, I noticed that I got a lot of weird looks and crazy stares from other students as they walked inside the building.

In New York City, there is an organization called New York School of Urban Ministry. I went with my church twice and during these visits we went out on homeless ministries. We would go around to the neighborhoods where the homeless usually grouped together, and we handed out paper bags of food and gave them toiletries. They told us about their dreams and their hopes, and usually they would tell us how they ended up homeless. One man was introduced to street life only one week before we got there. He lost his identification on an airplane from California. He didn't do anything wrong, but losing his I.D. kept him from employment. If it had been me I would be in the same place as him and I realized then that homeless people aren't any lower than us. Having felt this compassion, I started to pray for him, right there.

I strongly believe in the power of prayer, even though I am not afraid of flying, snakes or even death itself. I am afraid of God and His power and might. Because of this fear, I am living a life that is definitely not normal. I know that I wouldn't exchange this fear for any other fear in the world. I will always pray, regardless of what others may say or think about me.

2010-02-25T20:29:00.001-08:00

I need prayer, BADLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

I keep talking to one person who is living with her boyfriend and claims to be 'spiritual' Her name is Kaylee and I need prayer because I get angry at her for not listening to God or me. I pray that God changes my attitude, and does it QUICKLY! The Bible says 'do not let the sun go down on your anger' and I try to not be angry, but it's really hard. One of my friends told me that when I get angry like this, I tend to seem more judgemental instead of loving like Christ would be, so I'm asking prayer that I can change. Please, I just want to help, but I can't help if I keep getting upset... Thanx and God Bless :)

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2010-02-24T10:53:00.000-08:00

Joshua 1:8 says 8"This book of the law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it; for then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have success."

I want to be prosperous. In God of course.

~So I'm here in the library at school. My math class was cancelled due to snow and I didn't even have to go to my first class. But now I have from 10:50 till 4:30 to do nothing. Thats a lot of time when you have literally nothing to do. at 2:30 the school will be notified about evening class cancellations. So this means that at 2:30 I might be able to go home, but then I'll feel like I came out here for nothing, but I know that God wanted me out here for a reason. I kind of feel like the people in the book of Joshua(They aren't the 12 tribes yet, are they?) because I know that my house is out there. I can't see it, but I know that it is there and that I will reach it if I try and believe that God will protect me on my home.

Now if only I had a big cloud or a pillar of fire to guide me, that would be awesome :)

I don't know why but this passage is sticking out to me right now

Philippians 3:13-15 (New International Version)
13 Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,
14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
15 All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you.

One thing I want to ask is to please pray for the Henderson family, there are going through a very rough time with their youngest daughter. She is being rebellious, and not in a good way. Please just pray that God will open her eyes to the stupid things she is doing, and that she wouldn't have to go through something tragic to see Him for who He really is.

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2010-02-20T20:35:00.001-08:00

God is working in me so powerfully that it literally brings tears to my eyes. Recently me, and a girl named Cassie Savage started talking again. We met at church camp a couple years ago, but never really talked all that much. Guess what?!!? She's pregnant, but no surprise there for me at all. lol. I'm not gonna speak all the details, cuz that would be gossip and that is a sin. The reason I tell you this is because I can finally say that every time I even happen to look at a female that God has created I think to myself, 'God has made a perfect woman on fire for Him FOR ME!' Sometimes I might think 'this girl is pretty' or 'that girl is really nice' but I think, 'The one God made for me is prettIER and is nicER than that one' :) God is honestly changing me... For Forever. Today at the Men's Conference I went to (Iron Sharpens Iron) We talked about some things that men need to work on. One of them was how some of us might be proud to go to Bible colleges or semenary, but we never truly take our scholarly education and apply it to our CHARACTER!! I was like woah, thats me 100%. Not anymore!!!!! I can say now that what I learn from God doesn't just get stored in my brain, but it actually transfers into my 'guy code' aka my 'morals' and 'character'. I just wanted to use this blog and this time right now to give a shout out to GOD!!! He does so0o0o0o0o much in my life and I don't ever start to scratch the surface on how much He deserves my praise!

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2010-02-19T02:11:00.001-08:00

so I just got done watching Beauty and the Beast... It's an awesome movie, and I didn't watch it much when I was younger so I decided to watch it. In the beginning the narrator says that since the Beast was put on the spell he had to wait 10 years till we meet Belle. Ten years is a long time to wait... for anything. lol. As the movie was finishing and I was wiping my tears away lol(lol) I remember the story of Jacob and how much he loved Rachel. Genesis 29 talks about this story. The main verse in this story (I think) is verse 20 which says 'So Jacob served seven years for Rachel and they seemed to him but a few days because of his love for her.' SEVEN years of work is a LLOONNGG time to be working. But Jacob only saw it as if it were only a few days passing by. I can only imagine what my life will be like in the future.... I can't wait to meet the girl that makes years seem like a few days. God already has a woman planned out for me, and I think that's incredible. I can't wait for that day, It's going to be the second best thing to Heaven, even if it is a llooottt lower than actually being in Heaven. oh well, thats all I wanted to say :)

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life :)

2010-02-18T11:45:00.000-08:00

Do today I was looking through the free trader(same thing as Craig's list) and there is an add for Christian Musicians for Church Worship. I found out that the church is in For Covington.. It's a half an hour away, but who knows what God has in store? I'm not sure yet. I think I'm gonna try to convince my mom to go out there this Sunday to see what it's like. Posting it in the free trader is sorta like a call for help. Please pray that I smarten up and do what God has layed out for me. If God wants me there, then I want to be there, but if He doesn't want me there, then I don't want to be there. I also found an add saying that they want 'volunteer drummers to play for a crowd.' It sounds like fun, but at the same time, I want to listen to what God says about it. I am now looking for a job, but not overly looking. I put an add in for work, so I guess I will wait for a call. I just hope that what I do is what God wants me to do.

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2010-02-16T11:33:00.000-08:00

Sing Sing Sing by Chris Tomlin and Everything Glorious by David Crowder are 2 songs that I have fell in love with in the past couple days. God has been working in me a LOT lately. Especially in ways that I never knew He would. On my way to college yesterday I started thinking about how others see me as a Christian. Then I remembered how I always do my English homework about an hour before the class. What are people thinking when they see that? Am I bringing God glory by doing that? For once, FOR ONCE, I feel convicted that I NEED to be a good student so that I can bring God the most glory in that area. I never knew about this conviction, I always just heard people tell me that in order to bring God the most glory I HAD to do my homework.. I FEEL it now, I HAVE to do my homework, not just for me or my teachers, but for God. Conviction...man God is really cranking that up on me lately lol. I'm glad He is :)

Josh tried to get me to drink on Thursday night, Friday night, Saturday night, and even Sunday night. Idk why he thinks drinking is soo much fun. I honestly don't get it. I used to like it, I used to be consumed by it, but now that I'm on the outside looking in, I DON'T GET IT! haha.

Two things that I ask that you(you) would pray for me about are

1)Pray for my temper, I get really mad when I talk to an old friend about her choices. I try to tell her that she is going against God, but she won't listen. She is blinded by the world and it makes me furious, cuz she still thinks she is doing the 'right thing' and that 'God told' her to do it..

2)Financial issues, and my emotions that tag along with them. The more I think about how much we don't have, I get depressed and I KNOW that doesn't bring God any glory, so please pray that I remember what God HAS gave me and that I have a roof over my head.

Thanx,
~JeF
Romans 1:16 I WILL NOT BE ASHAMED!!!

why me?

2010-02-11T08:44:00.001-08:00

God has put a bit of anger in me, and I feel like certain things just set me off. When I get mad or angry, I turn to God's Word and I read from it, but I wish that I wouldn't get angry or anything in the first place. I just wish there was an eraser for emotions; I would totally get rid of anger and madness. I wish I had something to do on my days off, cuz I feel like all I do is be lazy and I dwell on my problems.

I guess I just wish people were more aware of what God is doing in their lives. I wish people were more grateful that their God is merely keeping them alive. One thing I was taught in man's night was that we are not aware of everything that God does for us, and that we should be more grateful for the unknown things that He does for us. But then again, I preach but I need to be preached to. I am not a good person, none of us are, I just think we all need to work on this area specifically.

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Frustrated? Why wait...

2010-02-09T18:38:00.000-08:00

haha, like that?

I guess I want to blog about how we need to give up to the Lord.

As I was driving to church today, I thought about why people choose not to live life for Christ. One thing that popped up in my mind is that the Devil is alwaz 'on their side.' I think that is a reason why they don't go God's way, cuz God is against what they do and such, but the Devil is not against their actions at all. They don't want to bow down to anyone or anything, cuz they are their own boss. They don't believe in commitment because why should they be bound to only one person? I'm sick and tired of it, to be honest. It disgusts me to my core.

SPEAKING OF THAT...wow...

My 'bff' just came in, I could smell the alcohol on him... apparently he skipped movie night to go to the bowling alley and have beer with his dad...

He has found favor with the wrong soul gatherer.....

We need to just give everything, literally everything to God.

Now to some, this might not mean giving up your cell phones or Ipod touches or Xboxs or whatever it is that you own, cuz maybe God wants YOU to have that. But we must be prepared to leave it for forever for the cause of good, because it is not ours to be had. Even if God wants US to posses these items, we must be willing to say 'God, take it if you need it out of my hands.' We don't need anything but God's love and forgiveness..and trust me, we have enough of that to go around :)

I'm not talking only about physical things, we need to give God our minds, our strengths, and our weaknesses..everything that we think about. All of it needs to go to God. Worries, Doubts, Ambitions, EVERYTHING has to go to God. If we give our worries and cares to God, then what do we have to worry about??? Absolutely nothing!!! Imagine a life where you don't have to worry about anything, just imagine the peace that that life could offer.. it's like you are floating in warm, clean, calm water, and you KNOW that you aren't going to sink.

I know a lot of people who need to give up stuff, the stuff that causes them to lose focus on God, TO God. I am not perfect, I have to work on giving up everything to God. It's a hard and LONG road, but it is one that is worthwhile.

I'm glad I have friends to help me :)

But I'd be willing to give them up for God :D haha.

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2010-02-09T12:18:00.000-08:00

I need prayer. I want to be more bold in Christ, but I feel like a bobber in the water, like I'm not really going to do anything. But I alwaz get this feeling like I NEED to make a ripple..... Idk how to explain it. haha. Like, there is this girl at Clinton, and it looks like she is going through a rough time..and she has missed classes too. I want to go up to her and be like 'is everything okay?.' For whatever reason, I never end up doing that. I mean I want to show the love of Christ and stuff by showing her how much He loves her, but at the same time I don't want to be caught in stuff that might lead me to fall away from God again....

Also please pray for my family's financial situation..it's not the most comfy situation.

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2010-02-04T09:57:00.000-08:00

'Why is it that you alwaz come to ME for advice, but then you NEVER LISTEN TO ME?!?!!?!?!?!!??!!?!!?'

I have been on both sides of this question...

it hurts....both sides, one side is saying 'I feel like you only come to me to say what you did wrong, yet you will keep doing what you are doing, cuz YOU ARE STUPID, YOU ARE THE FOOL THAT IS TALKED ABOUT IN PROVERBS!!!'

and the other one is saying 'I AM THE FOOL IN PROVERBS, I JUST DON'T KNOW IT. OR I CHOOSE TO NOT REALIZE IT CUZ IDK WHY!!. I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING, I JUST THOUGHT YOU COULD LISTEN WITHOUT TRYING TO CONTROL ME'

(I didn't feel like that second one Bilbo, I'm just saying that some people might think that)

So anywaz... lol

Today, God chose for me to be the one asking that darn question lol.

~One thing I'm learning in English(go figure, English lol) class is that I have to remember how I am reacting to what I am writing, or what I am reading..That in itself is kind of hard, because we have to (figuratively) go outside ourselves and stare at us in the face. Then we have to realize what we are thinking about, whether it is positive or negative, and then what emotion is being processed in our minds..

~I feel like I am losing my mind, because before, like a couple weeks ago, I could write a blog that stayed on topic. Yet now, I can't even hold out for a couple of sentences...haha. God gave me a scatterbrain, and it's awesome :p.

I want to reread the book of Daniel. It's an awesome story of how one man's Faith can do a ba-gillion gillion trillion billion million good deeds for God :) I want to have faith like Daniel and like Ezra.

A good song to listen to is..

2010-02-03T18:38:00.000-08:00

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This is what a wall of my room looks like.

Each piece of paper has 2 or 3 verses on it, and then it has cross reference verses for that passage. All of them but 1 are verses that I got out of my Wolbi packet for verses that are supposed to be memorized :)

2010-02-02T06:47:00.000-08:00

Romans 1:16 says
"I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile."

~I will no longer be ashamed!~

RaNtInG

2010-01-30T20:15:00.000-08:00

"God is the only thing you have have all to yourself, AND give away to everyone you see, and Still have MORE than enough"
~JeF

God is the best teacher I know..granted I know some amazing teachers... I figured out what I was supposed to learn from the pregnancies. I shall not be saying on here though, thats wayy to personal.

~only twice in my life have I caught myself praying to God that unfortunate things would happen to people so that they would get 'broken' or lost, and then they would find God, cuz that's what happened to me. "You have to show the sheep they are lost before they will look for the Shepard." Thats what I've heard people say when it comes to bringing people to the faith. But how do we show people that they are lost?

How do we show people that they are lost?

Good question huh? Let me know if you have an answer.... lol.

God is also like a Hammock, and I have never used that word before when describing my Love and Lord.

I love Hammocks, thats one reason why I say this... haha...

Sometimes when non-christians talk about my Lord, they like to point out the 'flaws' and "Holes" in the theology and why it's not for them...but I know that when I go to trust fully on Him that He will ALWAYS hold me up, firm and in 100% control....

It's not amazing but it's true, God holds us up whenever we need Him too...I just need to remember that...

Another thing I want to say is that people need to stop worrying about what other humans think of them. How much do we value other people's opinions of us?

Why do we value them as much as we do? Is it because we converse with these people everyday....It's cuz our sin nature tells us that what they think is who we are, so we act and perform like circus animals in order to gain the approvals of others...but I say NO! I will not conform to the patters of this world, nor will I lay down and do what the media tells me to.

In the end, who's Approval will get us into Heaven? The approval of man, or of God? (p.s. the answer is God)

Well, it is time for me to go to sleep now, good night(good morning to those who read this in the morning) and sleep well(I hope the coffee tastes well).

This song will blow your mind away....it did mine, now I have to go find it lol

~JeF

2010-01-29T23:12:00.000-08:00

Some words that my brain came up with to describe my LORD and Savior.

Peace, Truth, Life, Everlasting, Hope, Faith, Love, Joy, Happy, Omnipresent, Bold, Fearless, Imaginative, Hilarious, Caring, Thoughtful, Humble, Daring, Contempt, Forgiving, Amazing, Trustworthy, Loyal, Wise, Compassionate, Admirable, Casual, Warm, Uplifting, Gigantic, Specific,

ಮೊರೆಲಿಫೆ

2010-01-28T14:29:00.000-08:00

for anyone who reads my blog... sit down for this one lol. I found out today that another person from youth camp that I was really close with at one point IS PREGNANT...I feel like this is Deff. God trying to tell me something, but I'm not sure what....I need to figure it out before everyone I know gets pregnant. lol. God is gracious in every way I know. On KLOVE(radio station{I hear it in pburgh}) they go around sometimes asking people what their 'word' is. This word..from what I've gathered for knowledge.. is one one of God's characteristics that they see for the year 2010. I've heard many many words, and they are all fascinating, but I want to find my own word. I also want to know what Your word is, so comment this and let me know. There are so many different words to use. Some I've heard are Creative, Compassionate, Forgiving, Omnipresent, and Trust. I love those words and I get excited when they start talking about people's 'words'.

..In other news..

English and History have alwaz been my downfall when it comes to curriculum activity. On monday we had to write an in-class essay one of the topics given.

(This were the choices)
1. Going to college is an expensive investment, not just in terms of money, but in time, energy, and, sometimes, even loss of income because of the hours not spent at a paying job. However, it's an investment that you're willing to make. Why?

2. Americans are often accused of being overly materialistic. How do you feel? Are wek as a nation, guitly of focusing too much on materialism and accumulation "things"?

3. We often hear how important cell phones and/or BlackBerrys are in everyday life and how everyone needs to have them. Do you agree? How important is a cell phone and/or BlackBerry in your life?

4. Americans love to travel and visit new places. If you had a friend who was planning a vacation, what destination would you recommend and why?

5. Choose one of the following topics, narrow it, and write an essay related to some aspect of it:
stress
newspapers
transportation
sports
family
jobs
goals
films

(End of paper)

It took me 50 minutes to choose one and then to write a one page paper on it......so in the end, I chose number 2. I talked about how I believe that us as Americans, value getting things rather than our morals and such. I talked about how MTV Cribs just tells us that we need to have a lot of things in order to be happy, and I feel as though too many Americans believe this lie....Here comes the best partS....hahaha

(pt 1)
In my conclusion, I talked about how I think we could somehow fix our problem with materialism....and I said that the answer is God. I talked about how we need to look upon Him in order to be truly happy. I ended my essay with this; "If we were to ask an average American, he would say that he is decently happy with his life. But if we were to take away his stuff and possessions, would he still be happy?"

(pt 2)
He told me that I had one of the best essays in the class. :))))))))))))))

..in the end this is what I've learned personally.
I suck at English, but with God's help I can get through it!!!!!!!

life

2010-01-25T20:30:00.000-08:00

life, wow. life can throw you a curve ball sometimes. 2 of my friends have become pregnant in the past year. I learned at WOLBI that God will give you the same lesson until you learn what you are supposed to from it. I hope that its just coincidence and that I'm not suppose to learn anything from my friends becoming pregnant, cuz honestly, I don't know what to do about these situation. I tell them that if they ever need anything that I'm only a short drive away. They are convinced that they are set with life, yet they continue to complain to me about it. Am I supposed to just listen to their plea, or am I supposed to do something about it? I honestly don't know now. I have told them both to talk to some adults that I know could and would help them, but they refuse. Like right now, one of them is telling me how her and her boyfriend fight all the time about the baby...yet whenever I say something that I think would benefit their situation I end up getting told that 'they have it under control.' If they won't listen to me about seeking advice/counsel from elders, I at-least just want to get them to smile. I learned something today in my Psychology class today, that a smile, among every other facial expression is UNIVERSAL, so if you were to go to some remote place somewhere on the earth and found people and smiled, they would know that you mean them no harm..isn't that awesome? God has made the impossible possible!

In other news....lol
Fasting from Facebook is proly one of the hardest things to do in my life! haha. but with God's help, It's a snap(that's hip talk for easy)

I found an awesome song among the fast information stream called the 'internet' lol.

Heaven or Hell by the artist called Lecrae

2010-01-22T15:53:00.000-08:00

mistakes

2010-01-19T16:07:00.001-08:00

When I make mistakes, not just ordinary mistakes, but big mistakes, am I the only person who is afraid to tell anyone about it, hoping it will go away? Am I the only one who will try to cover their tale because they don't want to look bad in the eyes of others? I hope not, but I might be..idk....

Ezekiel 12:2 "Son of man, you live in the midst of the rebellious house, who have eyes to see but do not see, ears to hear but do not hear; for they are a rebellious house."

Idk how that fits, but I felt compelled to put it there......

I guess it just boils down to this, we, mostly I care more about what humans think rather than the God who created me. Thats a big 'no no'. That is deff something I need to change, and Change suddenly. If I please man and not God, then what am I living for? Absolutely nothing!!

I will admit this, I have fallen back soo far from the Truth, and I am ashamed to admit it.

1 Josh 1:9 "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"

There is one key word in there, and it never clicked till about 5.343 seconds ago. The word is ALL. It doesn't mean most, or half, or some, or a little bit, it means ALLL of our sins have been forgiven. No matter what we have done, or anything in the past, we are forgiven.

BUT, there is a catch...one that I fail at the most.

We, as Christians, must try our best to keep those sins and all unrighteousness IN THE PAST. We can no longer keep going in the sin because we are 'dead' to sin, according to
Ephesians, all of Chapter 2. (see below)

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians+2&version=NIV

I have to learn to 1)With the help of God, I have to willingly choose to stray away from sin, and 2)tell it to others when I mess up, and most importantly 3)ALWAZ remember that I can't do anything on my own, cuz I'm 'dead' (Ephesians Ch. 2 again)

So there I have it, just my little rambling again today.....

jef

2010-01-18T21:19:00.001-08:00

"When life kicks you down, and you feel like everyone, and I mean literally everyone is against you, just remember me, and how I died for you"

Thats what God said to me....... I need to listen....

ಸೋಮೆಥಿಂಗ್ ವೀ ಶೌಲ್ದ್ ಆಲ್ ವರ್ಕ್ on

2010-01-13T14:01:00.000-08:00

~Something we should all work on~

People, peer pressure, doing whats 'kewl' or 'in', being 'popular'

All of those are serious problems with today's world, I should know, I suffer from it... So I'm gonna blurb a bit(can you believe blurb is a real word???)

Galations 1:10 "For am I now seeking the favor of men, or of God? or am I striving to please men? if I were l trying to please men, I would not be a bond-servant of Christ." NASB

In this, Paul, a great Apostle is saying that if he were trying to please men he would not be a strong follower of Christ. We could all learn from this one passage. Paul is clearing stating here that since he is trying to seek favor with God, he has to put aside his earthly ambition of trying to gain favor with the world, or 'men'. People do not give Eternal Life, only God does, and He does this through His son Jesus.

We all just need to stop trying to gain the approval of the world, cuz just like with everything else in the world; one minute it is the main attention of the whole world and then next week we never hear about it again.....Which brings me to my next scripture..

Proverbs 8:35 "For he who finds me finds life and obtains favor from the LORD."

The 'me' in this sentence is Jesus, for whoever finds Jesus and keeps him(Heb 10:26) will find favor with the LORD. What does the word 'favor' actually mean though? I've been using it a lot here, so lets see what it means...

Definitions of favor on the Web:

* an act of gracious kindness
* prefer: promote over another
* an advantage to the benefit of someone or something
* consider as the favorite
* an inclination to approve
* treat gently or carefully
* a feeling of favorable regard
* privilege: bestow a privilege upon

Those look pretty good to me, I want God to say to me at the end of the day 'I approve of what you did today, because I know you did it for Me.' At the end of our ropes when we die and stand before God, we won't have our 'pals' or 'chums' with us, It will be us ALONE with God ALONE. We can't just be like 'hey, give me a second *picks up phone, dials & puts on speaker* and ask our best friend to tell God how awesome we are and why we should go to Heaven. If you knew someone had something you wanted, wouldn't you try to gain their favor? Like lets say someone has GUM, once we KNOW they have it, we want it. Therefore we try to gain their favor and approval of our deeds, right? Wanna know a secret? Heaven for Eternity is wayyy better than a whole factory full of gum!!!!!! God has told us that Eternity is there if we take it, all we have to do is believe!!

~JeF

ರೆಅಸೆರ್ತಿಫಿಕತಿಒನ್..

2010-01-07T22:51:00.001-08:00

well lets see, I turned off the lights in my room, shut down my computer, turned off the Television at midnight...and right now it's 1:52 AM and here I lay, writing a blog.. hahahaha, Oh man, God, You are HALARIOUS!! I love yur sence of Humor, it's the BEST! I haven't been the best Christian in the past 6-7 weeks...heck, I haven't even been a good person...BUT(I like the word but, because it symbolizes a complete contradiction of the verbage before it, like a 180!)...anywaz.. lol.. BUT! AS of right now, JeF the 19 year old!(woot woot) I will stay faithful to the One who created Faithfulness! today I read 2 Peter 3:9 which bassically sais 'yo dawg, chill out, cuz we all know that you have yur own business to attend to, but God has YOUR business in His hands, and He doesn't alwaz work to YOUR schedule, but that don't mean He is slow, it means He is waiting, for the prime time to show you His plan, cuz according to His plan, we WIN!'....BLAM... lol..

||You think dishpit reminds you of me? Yeah, everytime I get on facebook, or myspace, or windows messenger, or skype, or wake up, or go to sleep, or eat...yeah THAT reminds me of you, and the fact that I'm HERE and you're THERE|| {S.L.T.}

Pretend the bad one is the World...and that the Good one is Jesus...it makes sence to me atleast lol

Listen to this

2009-12-24T07:42:00.001-08:00

What is worse: a father who is absent or a father who is ashamed to be present?
J3f R0b

ya

2009-12-14T17:59:00.001-08:00

this is about me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fplGR59YHHs&feature=related

ಒಹ್ boy

2009-12-13T09:37:00.001-08:00

The only reason I write stuff on here is cuz I know that the people who read it are in tune with God. Every now and then when I feel really close to God and stuff, Satin gets soo implanted into my brain that I don't know why I go to WOLBI, I don't know why I breathe, and I don't know why Jesus would die a pointless death for me.

The only reason I write this is cuz I don't feel like this at this very moment....

Ever feel like God only sent His Son here cuz God gave up on us? Like God was like, wow what a waste of my life, to create such a pitiful thing? I feel like that sometimes, like God was soo depressed that He made Jesus come and die on the cross cuz we are soo pathetic and stupid? I wonder if God is in constant pain cuz of us humans, like He just sits up there looking down here and crying. Sometimes I feel like dying ONLY so that I would stop messing up God's plan. Like for instance, Sarah, I practically killed you, I know I did, and that's why I won't talk to you anymore, cuz I know that talking to me will cause you greater pain. My gf isn't the best for me, but somehow I am stuck in this, emotionally. I'm attached and I can't get out, I wish there was a 'go away' button, where as I could start over, 100% over. Maybe then I could try to be a normal human as to where I don't do stupid things. I just really want to give up, like I don't want to kill myself or anything, thats just pointless, but I seriously feel like if I were to take away all communication from other people, they would be better off, cuz I wouldn't get right into their lives and then mess things up. and THATS what the Devil is telling me, and I'm trying my absolute best to not believe it, but I think it all the time...

ಆಲೋನೆ ಇಸ್ ಹೌ ಇ ಫೀಲ್

2009-12-12T03:23:00.000-08:00

I'm growing in God, I really am, I do extra devos every night. I know I lied, lied and lied some more, and I'm sorry. This is the point where I say I hate myself for what I've done, but the one thing that you kept saying is 'don't hate yourself' so you know what, I don't hate myself, you honestly don't know how freeing that is. It makes me cry almost when I say that I'm free, I am free to do anything I want to. Maybe it's just the holidays getting to me, but I love life, not just cuz anyone in specific, but because we are all free, free to do whatever we want to do. God has provided us all with the ability to do what we want, when we want to. Some of us make mistakes, and lots of them, but some of us know exactly what we want and we want it now. I'm not sure where I fall in. I'm off to start my job in 1 hour, and I haven't slept at all. Idk what to do about my sleeping irregularities. I can honestly say that I love God more now than I ever have. That in itself is freeing. I love life as well, and I don't usually say that, but I LOVE LIFE!!!! The reason I love it is cuz God has given it to me. He gave it to ME, for no reason, just like 'hey, have another day, do with it what you please, cuz I love you' ME! for ME! and for YOU! to do WHATEVER WE WANT TO DO, because OUR LORD AND SAVIOR LOVES US THAT MUCH. Bill Jaggers once said 'The most powerful thing on this planet is a man on fire for God' and I agree 100% with that. I plan on proving it...someday, somehow. I just want to let you all know that God loves you(idk who actually reads these, cuz I have like no friends on here lol) well I have to go now, cuz my mom is making eggs and bacon, and I have to get ready for work. I should proly tell you what that is lol. I am a Professional Ski Instructor at Titus Mountain. www.titusmountain.com is the website. ttyl world, I hate you!(for the Bible says to hate the world)\

goodnewsbadnews

2009-10-10T09:39:00.000-07:00

wow, I haven't been on here in a while, have I?

Well, lets see where to start.

There is Good news and Bad news

The Bad news is about US, the good news is about GOD

BAD news;

We are all sinners, for Romans 3:23 says
'For all have sinned and fall short of the Glory of God'

lets say we stand at the equator and try to throw rocks to the north pole, you may throw it farther than I, or I farther than you, but neither of us will hit it. In the same sense, we have all come short, or missed the mark, of God's perfection and have sinned.

but don't worry yet, for the bad news gets worse

The punishment of sin is death, for Romans 6:23 says
'for the wages of sin is death'

lets say you work for me for a day, and I give you $50. That $50 is your Wages, which you earn by the Work that you have done for me. This is the same way with sin. Sin is the Work you have done, and therefore, you earn Death as your Wage. Death means eternal separation from God....

so we cannot come to God, but the bible says that God came to us!!!!!!!!

Christ died for us, for Romans 5:8 says
'but God demonstrated his own love for us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us'

lets say you are dying in the hospital by means of cancer. Suppose(if they had the right technology) that I came in and said lets take the cancer cells from your body and put them into my body......

What would happen to you?
What would happen to me?

You would life, and I would die in your place.

Jesus took on the world's sin and he died on the cross.

but just as the bad news got worse, the good news gets BETTER!

You can be saved through faith, for Ephesians 2:8&9 says
'for by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of GOD; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast.

Faith means TRUST

We can relate this to a chair that you sit in. You weren't there when the chair was made, and you don't carefully inspect the chair before you sit in it, you just simply TRUST the chair to hold your weight so that you don't have to hold yourself anymore.

In the same way we must Trust Christ as our ONLY way to heaven!

is there anything keeping you from trusting Christ right now?

IF you wanna keep this going, my myspace url is
www.myspace.com/peacockjr

my aim screen name is
jeffreyr10012920

or just comment this, but i do not check this as often as the other 2!

listen to "You Gave Your Life Away" by Paul Baloche

OAS

2009-06-08T16:32:00.000-07:00

I am now turning into a hypocrite. haha, Before this OAS trip, i did not like it in the least bit. but now, after meeting delegations from other countries I would say that anyone who is interested in taking the class, they should totally take it, cuz its an amazing experience(even if the water looks funny and messes with your stomach) haha. and you really get a good grip on who is friends with who for which countries. we have all learned how to dress up everyday, and how to get along with girls on the same floor as men. we learned how to ask people questions in the third person, which can get VERy confusing at times! haha

listen to The Reason by Julian Drive

ಎಕ್ಷೆರ್ಕಿಜೆ

2009-06-03T09:37:00.000-07:00

excersize

they say that excersize helps boost your immune system

they say that excersize somehow introduces more dopamine into your chemical system, and that makes you more happy,

excersize also helps out your heart, making it more healthy.

maybe i should excersize more, cuz i just listed very good reasons on why to do it.

idk what else to write......

listen to lets go back by everyday sunday

awesome song

ಗಾಸಿಪ್

2009-06-02T09:52:00.000-07:00

Gossip

I wish my class wouldnt gossip about teacher and faculty, thats disgusting. why do the young think they know everything? they dont, I dont, i know i dont. why does everyone HAVE to have a problem with at least one other person? is there anyone who doesnt have a problem with ANYONE? i used to be that person, and then my heart got in the way, and now im paying the price......

question to consider....

If 2 people have a problem with eachother, and then they go far away and never see or talk to them again, do they still have a problem? thats my question

~check our 'For Good' from the musical Wicked

~Jef

ಬ್ರೇಕ್ ಉಪ್ಸ್

2009-06-02T09:42:00.000-07:00

Break ups

they SUCK, but now i realize what my best friend (who will remain anon ymous for now) used to tell me, dating in high school is stoopid. I can finally see why he kept telling me it. and its true, it is kinda stupid, i mean its nice to have someone there for you to talk to and hangout with you when no one else will....but other than that, what is the difference between best friend and boyfriend/girlfriend? the only difference is the physical closeness. and thats what drives people crazy and it can lead them to do some pretty insane things. imagine if we could elliminate this 'skin hunger' that drives soo many of us in our daily lives. i should know, i used to be one of those people. but not anymore, i've got something bigger to live up to now, and nothing will hold me down!

listen to 'Defying Gravity' from the musical Wicked(its amazingggggg)

~leave some comments...please....

~Jef

ಹಃ ಫುನ್ನಿ ಮೂವಿ

2009-05-19T09:51:00.000-07:00

This is what i think being married without kids is probably like

ಕ್ಲಾಸ್ ಆಫ್ 09

2009-05-14T09:28:00.000-07:00

Class of 09, wow, we have so many memories, It's hard to understand that after Graduation, my life will NOT revolve around these people. My life will start to be more Jef centered and less Chateaugay centered.

ದಿ ಎಂಡ್ ಇಸ್ ನೆಅರ್

2009-05-06T09:27:00.001-07:00

The end is near.... pretty soon we will all be truly let out of our 'cages' if you may, cages as in from out house and our everyday lives. I can't wait, its gonna be awesome. hopefully i will keep blogging. cuz its really fun, idk who looks at this, but i think that more kids should blog because it is a really good way to get rid of your feelings, yet still be yourself and truthful.

ಒನ್ ಮೊರೆ ಡೇ

2009-04-28T09:44:00.001-07:00

ವಾಟ್ ಇಸ್ ದಿಸ್ ವಇರ್ದ್ ಫಾಂಟ್?

2009-04-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

i dont know why, but the title of my blogs is always changing into the weird font up there, does anyone even know what language that is? anywaz.....

~empty space to show complete change of subject lol~

31 days till im out of school, im deff. excited to be out of here and get to know more people who love god, but at the same time im scared cuz i dont want to leave this safety net that I have here. I'm going to Word Of Life Bible Institute, and i simply cannot wait. It's going to be amazing to get to know others who love god and who love everything about him. Senior trip is coming and i know that all of us are going to become closer as a 'team' if you will. we are all going to truly get to know one another...for the 5 days we are together, and it saddens me to know that this is the LAST 'field trip' that we are ever going to be on together. it just seems that if my life was a book, this would be the final chapter in part one of my life. haha, that reminds me of the book we are reading in English, To Kill A Mockingbird.

~music is my point of hanging on~

~jef

ಇನ್ಥೆಫುತುರೆ...

2009-04-24T09:34:00.001-07:00

With the economy spiraling down, experts have hypothesized that oil prices are going to shoot up emensly, so i say that this might become an awesomely fun way to get from place to place...as long as it is either downhill or reletively flat.. haha, but this guy has a really radical idea, which I LOVE!

Trip

2009-04-22T09:56:00.000-07:00

Pretty soon i am going on my senior trip, its proly going to be fun. last week i had the priveledge of going to NYC with my church, and we went to NYSUM! that place is amazing. I know that im going to see the heart of the city when i go on my trip, but i'd rather see the sore and hurting part. On my trip with my church, i went and talked with and prayed for homeless people on the streets, and i went to Goldwater hospital and played guitar for the people who resided there, one man was there for 18 years!! thats insane! I also served in a soup kitchen and gave a sermon on God'd love. i know that im going to see some amazing places on my senior trip, and im going to be served some awesome food. but in the end, i'd rather be the one serving, not the one being served

I wonder

2009-03-23T20:48:00.000-07:00

why is it that I can barely remember anything in the Morning, yet my mom is such a morning person it makes me want to go back to bed? Why is it that i think 100% better after 7pm rather than 7am? what is it that makes my brain more receptive and more connected to everything at the end of the day, while my mom's brain is at top performance in the morning? I have always wondered.......(comments are appreciated)

~its currently 11:48 pm!

picures

2009-02-11T09:55:00.000-08:00

i think that there isnt any other way to get me laughing than by a funny picture, whether it being a baby that looks angry, or a cat sitting on a couch. haha i think that pictures can also make me cry the most, other than the movie Marley and Me. i absolutely love that movie and i give it 2 thumbs up. its soo moving, and i also a dog lover so i can totally relate to the movie.

sleeping make you sleepy?

2009-01-26T09:55:00.001-08:00

i have recently been wondering about sleeping and how it truly affects our everyday lives. people claim that a good solid 8 hours is best, and some say that for a teenager 10-12 hours is best. as a teen i have spent all of last week going to bed at 2:30 am, when i wake up i feel refreshed and im not tired all day, 2 nights ago i got 7 hours of sleep and i felt sooo tired i wanted to crash right in church, and I PLAY THE DRUMS. i dont get it. all this proves is that the less amount of sleepy time i got, the less tired i was the next day...can anyone help me with this?

community garden?

2009-01-15T09:30:00.000-08:00

I was in Eco101 today, and we talked a little bit about Chateaugay having a community garden. I, personally, think that a community garden would be a good idea.
A community garden would support local community and support our local economy right here in lil 'ol Chateaugay. I heard that the place to hold this community would be on the School grounds. I think that that would be a good idea, but i think that some people wouldnt like that idea. i say how about having a little community garden next to the community bank on route 11? its just a small patch of land, but hey, no one uses it that i know of.

Q tip?

2009-01-08T09:41:00.001-08:00

What does the Q actually stand for in the ever p0pular Q-tip? The experts from Wikipedia say that the Q is short for 'quality'. the word Quality refers to the cotton on both of the ends of the stick... wow, i didnt know that!

some holiday jokes

2008-12-17T16:19:00.000-08:00

Q. Who gives presents and bites?
A. Santa Jaws

Q. Who is Santa's singing elf?
A. Carol

Q. What's Santa's dog called?
A. Santa Paws

Q. What's black white and red all over?
A. Santa in chimney soot

Q. Which elf is the best singer?
A. Elfis Presley

Q. What does Santa do in his garden?
A. Hoe Hoe Hoe!

Q. What rains at the north pole?
A. Reindeer!
Q. What is green, white, and red all over?
A. A sunburnt elf

Q. What do Santa's elves learn in the North Pole school?
A. The Elfabet

Q. What do snowmen eat for breakfast?
A. Snowflakes

Mr. bean's invisible drum set! HALARIOUS

2008-12-01T04:17:00.001-08:00

Ski falls

2008-11-21T09:39:00.000-08:00

for me, there is nothing funnier than someone falling on skis!

NeWs?!?!?

2008-11-14T09:44:00.000-08:00

Am I the only one who seems to think that news is getting tooooooooooooo sad? How about something positive sometime huh? wouldn't that be nice? I think so. Do you have any story that you think should get some attention? I prefer to have funny stories, but a story is a story nonetheless.

Chateaugay................

2008-11-10T17:54:00.000-08:00

Chateaugay (1960-1985) was an American Thoroughbred Champion racehorse who won two of the three U.S. Triple Crown races. Bred at Darby Dan Farm near Lexington, Kentucky by his prominent owner, John W. Galbreath, Chateaugay was a son of Swaps, the 1956 U.S. Horse of the Year and a Racing Hall of Fame inductee.

haha^

another thing i saw was the 'History of Chateaugay' and i got to thinking.....Chateaugay isnt really much of a town now, how could it have a history? but on a more serious way of thinking, it has a lot of info about Chateaugay.

and then further into my depth of finding what 'Chateaugay' is, i found a part of a website DEVOTED to Chateaugay, the link is HERE

World Laughter Tour!

2008-11-03T12:13:00.000-08:00

If you think that im pulling all this laughter stuff out of thin air, then i recomend that you look at http://www.worldlaughtertour.com/ , it is all about laughter! Their motto is 'Bringing Laughter to Life'! how cool is that?!?!? In that website i found all sorts of things, like this one guy used a formula that tells how long something is going to last based on how long its been around, and he used it to see how long laughter would be around for, and he predicts it will still be around in the Year Million!! holy awesomeness!!! that is incredible

more random facts about laughter!!

2008-10-31T10:50:00.000-07:00

Laughing engages almost every major part of your body.

When you laugh, you lose muscular control (fall over, bend over or wet yourself).
~haha

Laugher exercises your diaphragm. The diaphragm separates your chest cavity and your abdomen. When you laugh, it convulses and gives your organs a much-needed massage, stimulating circulation and enhancing general wellbeing.

When you laugh, your heart rate and blood pressure increase, dilating your cardiovascular system. When you stop, they decrease to below normal. Laughing ultimately lowers heart rate and blood pressure.

When you laugh, your head and your facial muscles move. These muscles are connected to your thymus gland, which in turn is responsible for your immune system. The more you laugh, the better your immune system.

Did you know? (facts about laughter)

2008-10-29T19:00:00.000-07:00

Laughter increases the "T Cell" activity?

T Cells are very important in the treatment of AIDS! Laughter helps these cells to “turn it up a notch”. ~wow, didnt know that

Laughter increases natural killer cells that attack viruses and some types of cancer and tumour cells?

Laughter creates eustress or good stress!

Laughter is aerobic – meaning it increases the oxygen intake in your body and also gives your diaphragm a good workout, which in turn is excellent for asthmatics or anyone with a lung disorder.

Laughter lowers Stress Hormones. Stress Hormones can constrict blood vessels and suppress immune activity.

Muscles relax during and after a good laughing session.

Laughter has positive effects all body systems, respiratory, circulatory, blood, cardiac etc.

Laughter can actually help to lower blood pressure and is also very good for people with diabetes.

We used to laugh 20 minutes out of every day in the 1950’s. Now we laugh for 6 minutes out of every day. Something has changed between then and now.

How do you measure up with laughter?(give me some feedback)

halarious videos,

2008-10-29T18:04:00.000-07:00

every math geek like me will love this video

Any cat lovers out there? HA!

Inside or out, Families no doubt

2008-10-29T09:42:00.000-07:00

Am i the only person who notices that when the snow comes, it feels like our parents dont 'chill' with us anymore? i found this out yesterday, when my mom said something about winter(im not sure what) and i didnt know that, and that triggered something, i almost never spend time with my family (mainly mom and dad). its a sad thought, but its true. kids absolutely love being outdoors, and parents choose to be inside where they are nice and warm. wouldnt it be nice if kids and parents could bond during these harsh months? i think that we(children and parents) need to come up with a plan to spend more time together. because after winter is done and over with, families might seem distorted or even split into to groups, the ones that are never inside(or even home) and the ones who are always inside(or at home), give me some feedback.

2008-10-28T09:25:00.001-07:00

does funnier mean happier? i think so, i think that the main way to be happy is laughing.