Am I The Weakest Link(goodbye)?

IDK WHAT IS GOING ON ANYMORE. I HAVE CHANGED in the past 3 weeks. I don't recognize myself internally anymore. I ASK MYself daily 'Dear God, Thank you!' I am no longer a procrastinator. Three people in the past week told me that 'seemed a lot happier'. I think it has to do with the all of a sudden no stopping it deep worship that I have been experiencing. This is amazing. I'm soo astounded with what God is giving me, internally and externally. This whole blog post doesn't even come close to how amazing this really is..


Jesus is king of all kings. The Second beast is no match for Jesus. Read it. Jesus wins. Lets focus on that :D


The best part is... This came out of no where :D

School

Does God really give us more tries.. Does He really give us 'second chances'?


I believe He does. I believe that if we commit or re-commit ourselves to Him that He will reward our loyalty and honesty. I have found that God gives us more chances when we ask for them, and that in turn, makes us want to be more like Him and more repentative.

It is like a cycle that I am hooked on, and I love it. You ask for forgiveness in one area of your life, and when God answers us we then want to be more like him in other areas. It is an awesome cycle to be a part of and I'm glad that I'm on this end of it :)

God has given me the opportunity to become part of a school system again. Thanks Jesus. God has also given me a sence of passion and worth again, which I now realize I was missing. I am taking 5 classes, all 3 credits.

American Popular Music
Intro to Corrections
Psych of Personal Growth
Intro to Sociology
English Comp

All awesome classes and I have awesome classmates.

One thing that I had worried about(which I will not disclaim at this time) has been answered. I am still searching for the meaning of this answered prayed but the matter of the fact is is that the foundation of that prayer has been answered.

I just had a God flash I believe.

When we see us as outgoing creatures, God sees us as timid. Compared to what He has seen and done, we have a long ways to go. But at the same time, when we see us as funny, God sees us as hilarious! I'd like to believe that God laughs at my jokes even more than anyone else does, even if it is the 1,000,000,000,000,000th time He has heard it.


God is good <3

recap

This is just a recap on what is going on in my life since my last post, which was I believe the beginning of November. It is now the End of December so it's almost safe to say that 2 months have passed.

We had a chimney fire. Well we caught it in time before it caught fire but if we would have waited any longer than it would have caught our house and we may all be dead. Thank God for that.

Now my car is broke. The belt split in 2 and then it busted one of my pulleys so that car is 95% useless unless I can get a belt and the pulley isn't messed up too badly.

Now the kerosene heater that we got from a friend won't start. So we have absolutely no heat in our house :(


But, I still have clothes, and my family, and my pets, and I'm still alive. We have electricity and we have each other. I guess that's good enough.


I just pray that this torture will end soon. Idk how much more our family can take it.

New Mind Creation

New Mind Creation. Mix of Romans 12:2 and 2 Corinthians 5:17

Romans 12:2a
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed

2 Cor 5:17a
If anyone be in Christ, they are a new Creation

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Just when you thought

I'm really down today. My past is catching up with me. Maybe I've been putting something off? Idk. I know God has a reason for this.


It's either Satan and I need to step on him or It's God showing me something, but I'm an emotional wreck right now.

Psalm 14

1 The fool says in his heart,
“There is no God.”
They are corrupt, their deeds are vile;
there is no one who does good.

Romans 3:12

12 All have turned away,
they have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good,
not even one.”

Those verses are speaking to me. It IS God's truth, but I know that Satan can sometimes use God's Word to deceive us.

I wish I could just back to that time and just not do it. It was the worst thing that happened to me. But it's when I started to take God seriously for the first time, so I guess it wasn't the worst time.

I had another fight with Amanda last night, as my last blog stated.

I have no clue what my next step in God is. I am trusting that He will guide me, but I have no idea where or what He is doing, and that kind of scares me. I know that He has big plans for me and I have been shown part of it... But I want to know what to do NOW and where my NEXT step is to be.

I am trusting God more than ever right now; mainly because I have nothing else to hold on to. I know that God is the only thing worth holding on to, so I know that I will be alright, I'm just waiting for Psalm 147:3 to come around.

Oh well, time for some worship.


Listen to



The Spirit went from 'I need to know You more' to 'You long to know us more' in another version.

It's been a while.

I'm surprised my name didn't do the weird symbol thing it used to do, but I guess things have changed since I last posted on here.

I'm doing okay on my walk. I try to be in God's word everyday, and I have people keeping me accountable(even some people that I wish wouldn't, haha)

We had a kid get saved in our youth group last Sunday night, isn't that AMAZING! I love how we get to see God's awesomeness!

I think I am starting to realize what being humble is all about. I am learning about pride issues that I didn't know I had! I asked God to make me more like Him, but I didn't know that it would be so hard! It sounds like a cliche but it's not!

I had another fight with a really good friend of mine, but I guess they didn't think we were. They pointed out where I was being prideful and I had to take it. It was hard. Normally I would make up a logical excuse for why I am the way that I am, but I just let them do the talking. I soaked up what they said and I pray that I learned something from it.

Anyways, I hope God shows me what my next move in life is, because I don't know what it is. I have a general path but I want Him to show me my next step. I will take a leap of faith, but I need to know which cliff is mine to jump off of.

Listen to

http://youtu.be/MV63_Vmf-74

I'm hurt

The title describes it all. I thought that I was going to be okay but I realize that it had been slowly eating at me, until now, when I realize that I've been trying to fill up the hole with other things. Things that aren't supposed to fill up holes in your heart.

So, I ask that you pray for me, whoever may be reading this, because not many people use this site anymore, but I ask that you pray for me. I ask that you pray that my heart be healed before I can damage it anymore. Please and Thanks.